Waiting!!

It's not easy to wait for an answer from God. I have taken refuge in an awesome song from the movie Fireproof. I added it to my playlist, but also put the lyrics below. Awesome song, I well up everytime I hear it.

By: John Waller
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy, no
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

And I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait


I will move ahead, bold and confident
I'll be taking every step in obedience, yea

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

Baby Nathan

Sorry its been so long since I posted anything. Most everyone knows the gist of what happened with us, but I will give the details anyway. I went to the doctor July 20th because I had been having contractions the Friday before and they put me on the meds to stop them over the weekend. Once I stopped the medicine on Sunday I started to feel the contractions again. The doctor said since I was 37 weeks he wouldn't keep me on anything to stop the baby from coming and that if he sent me home then I would just end up back at the office in a few days. So, he said, lets do the csection today. We were so happy, we had everything ready to have the baby that day. So, the process began. Nathan Robert was born at 12:20pm weighing 6 lbs 8 oz. and 20.8 inches long. He had a lot of fluid in him, but I heard him sputter and cry some. The NICU doctor came over to me and said, he's okay but I had to help him get started so we are going to take him to the NICU for a little while, hopefully he won't be there very long. So, it starts, here we go with the NICU again. We never thought we would have to deal with that this time, but unfortunatly we did. I was so sad. He looked so pitiful all swollen up and with that cpap attached to his face. And, I just wanted a normal experience having a baby. I wanted him in my hospital room, I wanted to leave the hospital with him in my arms. None of that happened. We went home without him. We journeyed to the hospital each day for a little while, at least so I could take the breastmilk that I pumped for him. by the way- he did come off the cpap on day 3 in the NICU and he looked like a different baby! He was breathing on his own and doing well, but he had to start eating from a bottle, since they had been giving him his milk through a feeding tube. The Saturday after he was born we had hopes that he would be coming home. they started all the going home procedures, they did a car seat test and had him circumcised. We stayed at the hospital all day waiting around and at 5:30 or so they said that he hadn't eaten well enough to be able to go home yet. I was so upset, I cried and cried(hormones Im sure:)) The next day his bilirubin levels had gone up and that kept him there. On Monday, his bilirubin had gone down a bit so they said, come feed him at 3pm and see how he does and maybe you can take him home. So, we did, and even though he still wasn't eating the way they would have liked, the doctor said the only thing they were doing was feeding him and we could do that at home. SO, we ventured home with baby Nathan on Monday, when he was 1 week old. He hasn't had any breathing problems and I took him to the doctor yesterday to check his bilirubin and it is down. So, everything is good. Aside from adjusting to having 2 babies in the house:) It is hard, but I have had help round the clock which has been very nice. I am trying to keep pumping my milk for him, but am also supplementing formula. I don't know how well pumping will go once I don't have help. Aaron is adjusting very well to having a new baby in the house and Landon just could care less since he has no clue what is really going on. He just stares at Nathan. Michael is back at work(probably happy to be there) and doing well, we still don't know anything about Florida, it will be a little while before we do. I will keep everyone posted:) Love ya!!!

Well, things are starting to happen and I am nervous but excited:) Thursday night we went to supper with Carrie and Dayna and celebrated Landon turning 1. I went to see Harry Potter with the girls right after and during the movie I started feeling some low back pain and what felt like mild contractions. I went home and felt them through the night, I did go a few hours without anything and then early that morning felt it again. It would come and go, but not regularly. So, I debated on whether or not to call the doctor on Friday morning and finally decided to go ahead and see what they said. they wanted me to come right in. He checked me and said my cervix had not changed, but if it would have, he would have taken the baby that day. He decided to put me on Breathine, a pill to stop contractions over the weekend because I will be 37 weeks on Monday and he would like for me to at least make it full term. He said if it got worse over the weekend they would do it, but if I still felt bad on Monday or if my cervix has changed at all, he will do the c section Monday. The medicine I am taking is awful. I have gotten a little more used to it now, but it makes your heart race and feel like you are going to jump out of your skin. I am very shaky all over and it stays that way for almost 4 hours, so by the time it wears off, I have to take it again. and I have to take around the clock. So, all that being said, I might be having a baby on Monday, but we shall see. They told me to be ready for it though. So, we are busy trying to get the house prepared and pack bags. We also had Landon's first birthday party on Saturday, which was hard because the doctor also said he wanted me on bedrest for the weekend. I stood more than I should on Saturday, but I just couldn't sit down the entire party. Landon was so cute on his first birthday. the party was a success and he got lots of cute stuff. He had a little bit of an allergic reaction to the smash cake. He got icing all over his face and was rubbing it in his eyes and his whole face broke out and so did his chest. It went away about an hour later, but he looked pretty miserable for a little while. I felt so bad for him! It was certainly a day to remember! Well, we will let you know when the baby comes, for now just pray that we are ready for this third child! I know that I am ready to not be pregnant anymore;) I'm not sure what that's like.....

BIG STUFF

First of all- HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET BABY LANDON!! It's hard to believe that a whole year has gone by. And we'll be welcoming Nathan on July 29th, just 13 days away. 12 and a half months apart, wow! This should be interesting! Praise God for a good pregnancy. I am anemic again, but go figure! SO, on to some bigger news. I had sent out a mass text the other night to some peeps about praying for us for something big that could really change our lives. Our families already know, and a few close friends know as well. So, I have decided to let everyone else know, because we need prayers and we need specific prayers that we make the right decision. Mainly, that we are following God's will, not our own. Sometimes its hard to tell the difference. Michael is pursuing a job opportunity in South Florida. If he gets it, we'll be moving just south of Miami. It takes about 10 hours to get there, maybe a little more depending on what time of day you leave and what kind of traffic you hit. Michael went down there last Sunday and spent a few days scoping the area and meeting the people he would work with/for. He talked with the commander and he feels pretty good about everything. He has to wait for the job to actually be posted before he can apply. this should take another month. Once he applies, if he is chosen, then we would move, probably in September. this is HUGE for us. We have a lot of family support here in SC, a lot of family that is very close to us. Taking our kids away from their family would be hard. We are praying for guidance. We are also praying that our family and friends will be supportive in whatever happens. I guess, we aren't really praying for the actual decision anymore, Michael will apply, and if he gets it, we will go. I guess the prayers we need now are for peace about it and support from the ones we love. We will be sad to leave, but we are super excited for this adventure. It's really in God's hands now as we wait to see what happens. Please pray for us, our lives could drastically change in the next few months, not to mention, once we have this 3rd baby, our lives will already be turned upside down. Thanks for your continued support and prayers, we love you all. check back for updates on this and BABY NATHAN:)

UPDATES

I MADE IT!!! I am officially past the gestational age at which Landon was born prematurely!! I am 29 weeks and 3 days and Landon was born at 29 weeks and 2 days. And, I am not in the hospital or on strict bedrest as of yet! Isn't it amazing?? I did have a doctor's appointment yesterday and my cervix is short again, but not enough for the doctor to change anything as far as bedrest goes. He did, however, go ahead and order me to have the steroid injections for the baby's lungs. He wanted to be ahead of the game if I were to come in a few weeks in labor and we had to do a csection. So, I had one injection yesterday and I will go have one today. Other than that, the appointment went well and everything else is going good. He told me to take it easy as much as I could but he understood that I could only do my best at that since I have young children(duh). I asked him about my restless legs and he told me to take Tylenol PM and if that wouldn't help to call him and he would give me some Ambien. Now, for all my sleepmed people, you know I don't want to take that Ambien, I just can't imagine it being safe during pregnancy even though they say it is. I actually don't feel comfortable taking a sleeping pill when I have a 10 month old who still wakes up through the night. ?? but on the other hand, restless legs is unbearable and I am not sleeping. UGH!!
Are colds at the beginning of summer common? My whole family has had a bad cold. Landon started with the croup last week. Poor baby was wheezing and coughing, it was nasty. They put him on steroids which I was reluctant to give him, but it seemed to really help. Then, I started getting a terrible cold, then Landon seemed to get better and then spiked a fever of 101 and started getting worse again. Then, Michael got sick too. He felt awful enough to stay home yesterday. Aaron has been croupy but I just give him Mucinex and he does fine, he stays the most well around here. We have been sooo very miserable. Yesterday, we all 4 laid down for a nap around 2pm, me, michael, and Aaron slept for 3 hours and Landon slept for 5 hours! we had to wake him up. WELL, Michael felt better today and went to work, Landon seems to be doing a lot better right now, I feel better other than the sinus drainage, so I do believe we are on the upside of things, now if I could just get some relief from the restless legs, and could sleep well, we would be great!!! Well, that's my update for today!! I know my life isn't very exciting, but OH WELL!!! thanks for listening anyway, and ANY suggestions on the restless legs would be greatly appreciated:) Love you all!!
OH FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! I forgot to let everyone know that Landon started crawling on Memorial Day, full fledged crawling!! He is EVERYWHERE!! I am going to have my hands full before long! START PRAYING NOW!

LANDON IS 10 MONTHS OLD

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?? MY BABY TURNED 10 MONTHS OLD ON SATURDAY, AND THIS PIC WAS TAKEN THE NIGHT HE WAS BORN- HE IS OUR BEAUTIFUL LITTLE FAT MIRACLE:) HAPPY 10 MONTHS LANDON!! WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!